Minggu, 30 November 2008

huff

I was still in school.
begging everyone to teach me this freaking math exam.

Jumat, 28 November 2008

the fate of kids from the lower caste

i'm at my home now..
all i do just blogwalking and replying the sms from my friend.
nothing to do.
too lazy to open email, chat, friendster and facebook.
and somehow my brain travel back through time, and i remember the day, when i went home late due to extra-tuttion at my school.

that day, i went home at 4 o'clock. my driver choose to take the routes inside my school complex to shorten our time to get back home faster. at the street we found a bunch of people was playing football, imagine it was on the street!! the place where usually car passing around.
have they gone insane?
at first, it was such an obstacle for me..
in the car, suddenly i remember about the kids on tugu tani, the case is almost the same.
(if you like to seen the news on tv, i think you will know about the girl selling newspaper using uniform on tugu tani, but i don't care with that girl, cause she's not there anymore.)
a group of kids playing football! on the field of tugu tani statue! it's not even a big field where you can have a good facilities to play?!

when i remember those things i just can smile, and felt i couldn't trust my brain, why do i think such things?
and again, when i almost reach my home at the street,
i seen a group of kids from a lower caste playing football, ridding a bicycle and running all around, some of them are singging, loughing, even fighting.

and i start to relize..
it's not their faults why do they play on the street..
it's all because they don't have the facilities..
yes we have, but dont you relize? nowdays our facilities wasn't free.
they don't have free facilities!
they can't afford to play on the futsal field, it is expensive.
they can't afford to swim on the swimming pool.
eventhough we have free field, don't you relize they don't have a good facilities?
all was broken.

so when?
when will the kids, who was playing on street can play on the field with a complete facilities?
well, i just can expect our goverment can start think to make more free facilities..
these what was happen with kids from lower caste in jakarta.. how about your city?
hope it was so much better then mine..

Selasa, 18 November 2008

grow up before the time ? am i?

"Selama ini ada orang yang sedikit mengeluh waktu berkumpul dengan saudaranya yg masih bocah. Orang itu berkata 'anak kecil sekarang dewasa sebelum waktunya', tapi ternyata orang yg ngomong sendiri, memiliki pemikiran yg lebih dewasa dari pada umurnya" ~ from my offline messege

well,
i have to answer these things..
karena orang yg di maksud itu adalah gue.
ya gue akuin gue pernah ngomong kalo bocah sekarang itu dewasa sebelum waktunya.
but i do, not mention in which part do they look like more older than they real age.

for me they seem more older from their act, they pretend to act like an adult, but the way they think are still a child or small kids.

kalo menurut lo pemikiran gue lebih dewasa dari umur gue..
ya mungkin aja..
HEY! i'm starting to grow up now!

nowdays, i'm not think that i was a really small kids anymore which like to play everytime, but i also not think that i am deserve to treat like an adult, cause i am a teenagers, which starting to take anything seriously.
and for me, in my age, is the time for me to choose, weather i want to be childish, and more selfish, or start to thinking big, and start to face my problem with calm and patience.

but i do still act like a kids sometimes, cause i do need to refresh my brain with 'kids thingy', such as game, etc.
but really,
i'm different from a small kids which act as and adult/teenagers.
cause i'm a teenagers which think like an adult but not act as and adult.

can you see the different?
it has so much different right?

Senin, 03 November 2008

witch.


fair is foul and foul is fair,
hover through the fog and filthy air"






somehow. i was thingking if i'm becoming a witch.
the most i'm willing to do are back through time,
solve all my problem, and correct all my mistakes in the past..

but if i'm solve those problem, maybe i won't get my briliant life today.
and the most important maybe i will never learn from my mistake.

"double, double, toil and trouble,
fire burn and couldron and bubble.
double, double, toil and trouble,
fire burn and couldron and bubble."


the other day, i was thingking, how to make people happy?
perhaps i can give them a happiness, maybe with becoming witch,
cause, what i thought with becoming a witch i can give what they want.

now i know, it's not my job to make them happy.
because they have to find their own way to be happy, to reach their
long lasting happiness.
and amagine, if i give them what they want, easily,
they will not know what was hardwork mean..

so, now i'm proud and happy with myself.
this is me,
i'm not pretend to be someone else.
this is where i'm supossed to be now.
in this briliant world..

macbeth with bossy pak's girl.

still, i can't control my ego, somehow.
capeknyaaaaaaa..
6 day more to the annual function, and my brain starting to blow up, and BOOOOMB.
ok gue lebay.
tapi really, gue capek.. dan resiko nge gangguin gue yg llagi capek? kena deh sama kenyolotan gue. ahaha, udah bad mood.
hari ini latihan nya totally ancuuur. hahaha.
someone distrub me, she's new in this producton (macbeth) and she's bossy.
jadi ceritanya
gue lagi siap siap dengan peralatan untuk music, blom saatnya musiknya gue mainin, eh dia teriak teriak,
"karina play the music"
idih resee.
tapi gue jadi panik..
untung ada temen gue, dia dengan nada nyolot bilang ke tu anak
"she know what she had to do, so shut up!;
yess, untung gue punya temen kea lo pah.. tapi sebenernya kasian juga..
tapi itulah kenyataan, di sekolah international masih ada rasis, terutama anak pakistan (yg notabene punya sekolah gue) itu sangat amat rasis sama kita anak indo.
dari awal kita mau bikin macbeth mereka udah ga percaya kalo kita bisa,
tapi lihat sekarang? kita bisa.
semua bilang kita yg bagus.
soo,
we are indonesian, you are standing still in our contry,
don't even look down at us,
couse we are much powerfull then you!

uff. another unimportant post.
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